I miss my husband.
While Autumn is my favorite time of year and I never want it to end, I can't wait for December. Because that will mean Justin graduates from school and I'll actually get to spend time with him!
Right now he is working and going to school, both full time. He isn't home often, and when he is, our time is mostly spent with friends or family. Which I don't mind, I love seeing our friends and family! But I miss him sorely. Our alone time and family time with Bree has been really lacking.
When we were first married and kept having dates instead of just hanging out with friends, someone (single) asked me why alone time mattered so much, since we lived together and saw each other all the time. Until you're married/in a serious relationship, you just will never understand.
Do we sleep in the same bed? Yes. We wake up and see each other. But then it's a mad rush of showers, baby, and coffee and Justin is out the door. Sometimes he doesn't get to come home until almost ten. So yes, I see him when he comes home. I sometimes get to make dinner for us as a family. Then it's the process of putting Bree to bed. Or having people over or going to visit someone. Which we love, our friendships are important to us and need cultivating. But can you see where the alone time, talking and catching up with each other, romancing each other comes in? Kinda hard to squeeze in there.
I'm realizing we need a change of priorities. Work and school we are not able to work around right now, but we need better time management. Less TV time, more family time. Time with extended family and friends, but first and foremost with OUR family.
You get so busy with things and people that time flies by and you realized you haven't had an actual conversation one-on-one with the love of your life in far too long. My heart is pretty sore today. Some if you're reading this, married, dating, whatever... make time in your life for those who matter most. Even when it's hard. You can fit it in somewhere.
I miss Justin. Bree misses Justin. He was home for some of this morning (a Saturday) and Bree happily played around, content we both were near, but as soon as he started getting ready to leave she got fussy. When he left, she sat by the door and screamed for him. This season of life is okay, but not very fun. And when we don't see each other, get to cultivate our relationship, we're like two roommates. We get short with each other, impatient. It's a vicious cycle! Summer spoiled us.
So, that's what's going on with this little family this week. Boredom, loneliness, lack of time. Crying baby. I am so in love with my family, I'm not enjoying this very much.
Toodles.
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ReplyDeleteWe find the same in a different way. Living with my parents while we search for a house means alone time is very rare.
ReplyDeleteHe leaves before we wake in the morning, he gets home most days after my parents get home and then its diving straight into cooking dinner/feeding baby/bathing baby and the nighttime routine. If we're super lucky he gets off work early and we get half an hour together between 430 and 5 but just as often he gets home at 10pm and I wait up for a kiss before we both go to bed.
The weekends my parents never go out so we have to drag our tired selves out of the house and go 'somewhere' just to be alone as a family but he's on call during the weekends so that can end with the ringing of his phone anytime night and day.
It does have the positive effect of making those small stolen moments alone and as a little family, so much the more precious. We don't take it for granted, we cherish it and hopefully we retain that ability when our moments together are more plentiful.
Absolutely Johanna! <3
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