Quality Time

I miss my husband.

While Autumn is my favorite time of year and I never want it to end, I can't wait for December. Because that will mean Justin graduates from school and I'll actually get to spend time with him!

Right now he is working and going to school, both full time. He isn't home often, and when he is, our time is mostly spent with friends or family. Which I don't mind, I love seeing our friends and family! But I miss him sorely. Our alone time and family time with Bree has been really lacking.

When we were first married and kept having dates instead of just hanging out with friends, someone (single) asked me why alone time mattered so much, since we lived together and saw each other all the time. Until you're married/in a serious relationship, you just will never understand.

Do we sleep in the same bed? Yes. We wake up and see each other. But then it's a mad rush of showers, baby, and coffee and Justin is out the door. Sometimes he doesn't get to come home until almost ten. So yes, I see him when he comes home. I sometimes get to make dinner for us as a family. Then it's the process of putting Bree to bed. Or having people over or going to visit someone. Which we love, our friendships are important to us and need cultivating. But can you see where the alone time, talking and catching up with each other, romancing each other comes in? Kinda hard to squeeze in there.

I'm realizing we need a change of priorities. Work and school we are not able to work around right now, but we need better time management. Less TV time, more family time. Time with extended family and friends, but first and foremost with OUR family.

You get so busy with things and people that time flies by and you realized you haven't had an actual conversation one-on-one with the love of your life in far too long. My heart is pretty sore today. Some if you're reading this, married, dating, whatever... make time in your life for those who matter most. Even when it's hard. You can fit it in somewhere.

I miss Justin. Bree misses Justin. He was home for some of this morning (a Saturday) and Bree happily played around, content we both were near, but as soon as he started getting ready to leave she got fussy. When he left, she sat by the door and screamed for him. This season of life is okay, but not very fun. And when we don't see each other, get to cultivate our relationship, we're like two roommates. We get short with each other, impatient. It's a vicious cycle! Summer spoiled us.

So, that's what's going on with this little family this week. Boredom, loneliness, lack of time. Crying baby. I am so in love with my family, I'm not enjoying this very much.

Toodles.

I Found A Flea

I found a flea. On me. This morning.

WHAT?!

This is NOT okay. Especially considering that we do not have any pets. Our downstairs neighbors did. Illegally. For the entire summer. I'd be pretty pissed if this was because of that. But alas, there is more than likely no legitimate way to prove that.

I feel itchy.

I'm fairly certain I killed it. But then it disappeared and that makes me think... mmm.... maybe not.

As most people know, I'm a very "natural" minded person (you can read all about that HERE), so I'll be trying some alternative treatments before we go to chemicals. Not just because it's natural but frankly I don't want icky chemicals around my daughter.

And apparently they can't live long if there aren't animals to feed on. (But I'm not sure I believe that.)

I'm so skeptical! About many things. I don't think that's a bad thing, it's been the leading force behind all my research about everything I'm know and am passionate about. Skepticism can be healthy! It's okay to question things.

However. Because I am so skeptical and often seen as "against" things, there are some things I refuse to look into. I know enough about GMO food and chemicals and Big Pharma... honestly I am coming to understand the term "ignorance is bliss." Because it really is. However, I would rather know what I know to better help and protect my family. But once you know what you know, there is really no going back!

Having said all that, I still eat pot pies, drink Starbucks, and really enjoy fast food on occasion. Because, while I know what I know, I also know that God's got my back and some things I can enjoy. Now, if I knew suchandsuch caused cancer directly, I wouldn't willingly continue to put that in my body. But I know that Wendy's once in a while won't kill me.

Meanwhile.... the flea has not turned up. It has come to my attention that vacuuming and baking soda and the fact that we lack carpets and pets may  deter them. As soon as the baby is done napping, it's on!

It's Bree's Birthday!

Today is my little girl's very first birthday! Whoa! It's been a crazy busy year that has flown by way too fast. I may not be online very much today (only by the grace of a nap am I writing this now!) but I wrote a little bit in retrospect for the past year, which you can read here.

Have a lovely day, I am off to celebrate and play with my little girl :)